У меня часто случается такое: несется за мной какой-то фильм или книга и требуют, чтобы я их пересмотрела или перечитала. Не знаю, с чем это связно, но обычно я поддаюсь этой навязчивой идее, нахожу не выходящий из головы фильм или книгу — и не успокаиваюсь, пока не пойму, зачем они меня преследовали.
В последнее время за мной «гонится» книга “Братья Карамазовы”, а точнее Алексей Карамазов. Я чувствую, что он там что-то понял, что я сейчас поняла, и мне нужно его послушать, чтобы убедиться, что я не сошла с ума. Ха-ха-ха!
И вот не прошло и двух страниц, как мне попадается вот этот пассаж о старцах:
“…Старец — это берущий вашу душу, вашу волю в свою душу и в свою волю. Избрав старца, вы от своей воли отрешаетесь и отдаете ее ему в полное послушание, с полным самоотрешением. Этот искус, эту страшную школу жизни обрекающий себя принимает добровольно в надежде после долгого искуса победить себя, овладеть собою до того, чтобы мог наконец достичь, чрез послушание всей жизни, уже совершенной свободы, то есть свободы от самого себя, избегнув участи тех, которые всю жизнь прожили, а себя в себе не нашли…”
И последняя мысль о свободе от самого себя и о нахождении себя в себе не выходила у меня из головы. Потому что йога, например, говорит о том же, духовный путь — это тоже об этом. Вообще весь смысл жизни об этом. Для меня духовный путь — это не стать лучше завтра, чем сегодня, ритуалы, отречение от самого себя, дорога в бесконечность, бессмертие или что-то там еще… Для меня духовный путь — это путь от себя к себе. Цель его найти себя в себе. А не попасть в рай благодаря хорошему поведению…
Мысль эта в последнее время не выходит у меня из головы. Может, поэтому подсознательно так хотелось перечитать именно эту книгу. Не знаю.
С другой стороны, редко говорят о том, что эти поиски себя, спуск к себе, в себя, оборачиваются не только чудными открытиями, но еще и всякой ерундой, пугающей и выводящей из равновесия. Смотришь на себя и думаешь — неужели все это тоже я?
В общем буду читать дальше….
34 комментария
Наталья
Ольга, у Вас всегда такие интересные посты. Они меня вдохновляют взглянуть на свою жизнь по-новому.
Olga D.
Спасибо большое, Наталья, за комментарий! На самом деле очень приятно, потому что иногда я пишу что-то здесь, потом перечитываю и думаю «какая глупость, и выкладывать не стоило». Спасибо!
quest bars cheap
This piece of writing will assist the internet visitors for setting
up new webpage or even a blog from start to end.
quest bars cheap
I was curious if you ever thought of changing the structure of
your site? Its very well written; I love what youve got to say.
But maybe you could a little more in the way of content so people could connect with it better.
Youve got an awful lot of text for only having 1 or 2 images.
Maybe you could space it out better?
quest bars cheap
Excellent post. I was checking constantly this blog and I’m impressed!
Very useful information specifically the last part 🙂 I care for such info much.
I was looking for this particular info for a long time.
Thank you and best of luck.
how to get help in windows 10
Hello, i read your blog occasionally and i own a similar one and i was just wondering
if you get a lot of spam responses? If so how do you protect
against it, any plugin or anything you can advise?
I get so much lately it’s driving me crazy so any assistance is very much appreciated.
quest bars
Thanks for your personal marvelous posting! I really enjoyed reading it, you
can be a great author. I will be sure to bookmark your blog and will often come back from now on. I want
to encourage one to continue your great posts,
have a nice evening!
how to get help in windows 10
Great post. I am dealing with many of these issues as
well..
how to get help in windows 10
wonderful post, very informative. I wonder why
the opposite experts of this sector do not understand
this. You should proceed your writing. I’m confident, you’ve a
great readers’ base already!
plenty of fish dating site
Hi there to every single one, it’s actually a nice for me to pay a quick visit this site, it includes useful Information.
plenty of fish dating site
It’s wonderful that you are getting ideas from this paragraph as
well as from our argument made at this place.
how to get help in windows 10
Good post. I learn something totally new and challenging on blogs I stumbleupon on a daily basis.
It’s always helpful to read through content from other authors
and use something from their web sites.
natalielise
Hi, I think your blog might be having browser compatibility issues.
When I look at your blog site in Opera, it looks fine but when opening
in Internet Explorer, it has some overlapping. I just wanted to give you a quick heads up!
Other then that, excellent blog! natalielise plenty of fish
plenty of fish dating site
Its not my first time to go to see this web page, i am browsing this web page
dailly and get nice information from here everyday.
plenty of fish dating site
There is definately a lot to know about this topic.
I love all the points you made.
plenty of fish
naturally like your web-site however you have to take a look at the spelling on quite a
few of your posts. Several of them are rife with spelling
issues and I in finding it very troublesome to inform the reality on the other hand I’ll surely come
again again.
dating site
This is the right web site for everyone who wishes to understand this topic.
You understand a whole lot its almost hard to argue with you (not that I personally will need to…HaHa).
You definitely put a brand new spin on a subject that has been written about for years.
Excellent stuff, just excellent!
plenty of fish
My relatives all the time say that I am wasting my time here at net, except I know I
am getting knowledge every day by reading thes good posts.
plenty of fish https://natalielise.tumblr.com
Its such as you learn my mind! You seem to grasp a lot approximately this, like you wrote the ebook in it
or something. I feel that you could do with a few percent
to force the message house a bit, but instead of that,
that is magnificent blog. A fantastic read. I will certainly be back.
pof natalielise
plenty of fish dating site
What i don’t realize is if truth be told how you’re now not really a lot more well-liked
than you might be now. You’re so intelligent. You already know thus significantly with regards to this topic, produced me personally imagine
it from numerous varied angles. Its like men and women aren’t fascinated unless it’s one thing to accomplish with Lady gaga!
Your own stuffs outstanding. At all times care for it up!
plenty of fish dating site
After I originally commented I seem to have clicked the -Notify me
when new comments are added- checkbox and now whenever a comment is added I get 4 emails with the exact same comment.
There has to be a way you are able to remove me from that service?
Many thanks!
plenty of fish dating site
It’s going to be ending of mine day, but before finish I am reading this wonderful paragraph to increase my experience.
plenty of fish dating site
Pretty! This has been an incredibly wonderful post.
Many thanks for supplying these details.
descargar facebook
I really like what you guys tend to be up too. Such clever work and coverage!
Keep up the terrific works guys I’ve included you guys to my blogroll.
minecraft games
I’m really loving the theme/design of your website.
Do you ever run into any browser compatibility issues?
A small number of my blog readers have complained
about my site not working correctly in Explorer
but looks great in Firefox. Do you have any ideas to help fix
this issue?
descargar facebook
Heya i am for the first time here. I found this board and I to find It really useful &
it helped me out much. I hope to provide one thing again and aid others like you aided me.
quest bars cheap
What’s up friends, how is all, and what you wish for to
say about this post, in my view its actually awesome designed for me.
quest bars cheap
My partner and I stumbled over here coming from a different web address and thought I might
as well check things out. I like what I see so now i’m following you.
Look forward to looking at your web page again.
quest bars cheap
I do not even know how I ended up here, but I thought this post was
good. I don’t know who you are but definitely you’re going to a famous blogger if you aren’t already 😉 Cheers!
minecraft games
Undeniably believe that which you stated.
Your favorite reason seemed to be on the web the simplest thing to be aware of.
I say to you, I definitely get irked while people think about worries that they
plainly don’t know about. You managed to hit the nail upon the top as well as
defined out the whole thing without having side-effects , people could
take a signal. Will likely be back to get more. Thanks
minecraft games
I’m really enjoying the design and layout of your site.
It’s a very easy on the eyes which makes it much more
enjoyable for me to come here and visit more often. Did you hire out a designer to create your theme?
Outstanding work!
quest bars cheap
Nice blog here! Also your website loads up fast!
What host are you using? Can I get your affiliate link to your host?
I wish my web site loaded up as quickly as yours lol
quest bars cheap
Highly energetic blog, I loved that a lot. Will there
be a part 2?
minecraft games
Appreciation to my father who shared with me on the topic of this blog, this website is in fact awesome.